.tied up.

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

rain.

the sky's kinda gloomy looking.
a blanket of grey.
no sign of white cotton.
just a blanket of grey.

i found out something.
something that isn't quite exciting.
something's tt's makes the atmosphere even colder.
something tt makes everything around me feel denser.
a bottle of cold ribena.
with ice of course.
sitting in front of the computer.
thinking.
jotting down my thoughts.
water condenses on the surface of the glass bottle.
the once clear glass now blurred.
why?
why did she suddenly just vanish.
without a word.
without explaining.
without even a hint.
she leaves.
shocked.
i am shocked.
immediately i messaged her.
"what's going on?"
confused. concerned.
i wanted to know.
now i know.
but.
but.
but.
isn't it all too drastic?
it's all too fast.
it's all too much.
i unwrap my roll up.
spongebob's smiling at me.
weird.
things are never going to be the same again.
6 months.
at least for now.
at least during this period, things are going to be weird.
just thinking of it makes me depressed.
hmmm.
i still don't really understand.
but i guess i never will.
(chews).
everyone's gonna be affected.
like a kingdom under attack.
everyone's gonna be in confusion.
running around banging into each other.
not knowing where to go. what to do.
lost.
i have this strange feeling that we'll be lost.
pretty demoralized.
at least for a while.
we'll get back.
we'll get moving.
but tt takes time.
oh well.
i think too much again.
worry.
worry.
worry.
tt's all i do.
anyhow.
here's wishing you all the best.
take good care.
pray hard.
and let's not lost contact.
will be missing u a whole lot.
come visit us soon.
if it could change anything now.
"don't go"
but i guess i'm too late.
rain.

[ Jude whispered ][ 2:38 PM ]

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